My nightmare, here it goes.

- One single day, you showed me all our pictures. You told me, "we're over." If this was going to be the nightmare that i'm going to have, i rather not sleep for the rest of my life.

I felt that our relationship is just so intruded, real intruded. You just can't seemed to blog what you want. All because? Of this someone, she's not strong at all.

Fcuking idiot, saying that she keeps everything to herself. Fcuk it, what for she needs to blog about her unhappiness. A blog is meant to be read, isn't it? What for she wants to show her unhappiness through her msn nick?

Is this what you call strong? Or is this what you call acting strong? Is not that i do not want to care about her actions. Its that i felt that its too childish. You're not mature at all, gal. Learn to be mature.

Maturity isn't only about how you carry yourself, its about how is your perspective to view things. Its about how you actually overcome your obstacles, its about how you show out your unhappiness.

I kept quiet for such a long time, behaving as if i was a coward? I just do not have the courage to tell her. I felt so intruded. I'm happy in that relationship, i'm too happy. I love her too much. She can give me the happiness that i want, the happiness that i yearn for.

Seriously, you can't.

I love her because she is so understanding, i love her because i can talk alot to her, i love her for who she is.

Please, stop the fcuking nonsense. Yeah, i'm selfish. I can't lose her and thats for sure. I want to be with her, for no matter what toture i got to suffer. I love her for her everything.

Blame me for everything, i just want her. No matter what it takes, if you take her away from me, I will never ever forgive you.